I am 21 years old and I have 21 days until I leave! :)
This week is my last week of work. I can't believe how fast this came up. I guess everything seemed so far away but everything is starting to come into focus. I am loving every moment of it too! I dream about Brazil almost every night and only my imagination can picture what it will actually be like. My dreams are good!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Knotts Berry Farm
This past Saturday we went to Knotts Berry Farm. This place holds a lot of dear memories for me-I grew up going to this theme park. It was a last minute trip but we all had a blast! The weather was just a bit on the chilly side but otherwise perfect. Funny jokes, Funnel cake, Fantastic rides= A FABOLOUS day!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Sometimes...
Sometimes, I get to a point where everything must come to a halt!
Sometimes, I need to take a minute to myself.
Sometimes, I feel alone.
Sometimes, I feel I have no friends.
Sometimes, I feel like the ugliest person in the world.
Sometimes, everything sucks.
Sometimes, I cry my eyes out
Sometimes, I wish I could run away from here.
Sometimes, I want to tell you what I am really thinking.
Sometimes, I laugh as loud as I can.
Sometimes, I smile.
Sometimes, I feel like I am on top of the world.
Sometimes, I don't feel guilty for eating that piece of chocolate.
Sometimes, I look myself in the mirror and say... "Your hot, Lindsey."
Sometimes, I don't wear make-up.
Sometimes, I dance like no one is watching.
Sometimes, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Sometimes, I sing at the top of my lungs.
Sometimes, I think the word "sometimes" is an awkward word.
We all have our moments of "sometimes." I think it's okay...afterwards, it brings us back to reality and we remember who we really are and what we can do!
Sometimes, I need to take a minute to myself.
Sometimes, I feel alone.
Sometimes, I feel I have no friends.
Sometimes, I feel like the ugliest person in the world.
Sometimes, everything sucks.
Sometimes, I cry my eyes out
Sometimes, I wish I could run away from here.
Sometimes, I want to tell you what I am really thinking.
Sometimes, I laugh as loud as I can.
Sometimes, I smile.
Sometimes, I feel like I am on top of the world.
Sometimes, I don't feel guilty for eating that piece of chocolate.
Sometimes, I look myself in the mirror and say... "Your hot, Lindsey."
Sometimes, I don't wear make-up.
Sometimes, I dance like no one is watching.
Sometimes, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Sometimes, I sing at the top of my lungs.
Sometimes, I think the word "sometimes" is an awkward word.
We all have our moments of "sometimes." I think it's okay...afterwards, it brings us back to reality and we remember who we really are and what we can do!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Feelings of...
Six months until we meet together and listen to a prophets voice again...
The messages that were given to us were words of inspiration, advice, and mostly love. I think Elder Holland's talk summed up what General Conference is every time. I usually leave conference feeling so rejuvinated and ready to take on the world with my armor in hand. I do feel that way but this time, I have a lot of other feelings too.
The first feeling I have is gratitude. It was said that it's not easy to be a Latter Day Saint in a world so harsh. I always thought it was but more recently I have seen the difficulties the adversary can have on me. However, because I have the gospel in my life, I know how to combat these evil forces and stand valiant. I have gratitude for a prophet and apostles who love us individually and take the time to ponder and pray about what they speak on each conference.
A feeling that I have come to be familiar with all to well the past few months is guilt. Right now, I have never felt more guilty. I feel like I can do so much better and I have the constant question burning in my brain of, "Am I good enough?" This conference our leaders spoke a lot on marriage. They counseled us to seek marriage, RIGHT NOW! Obviously, that is something I can't really do right now on a count of I am going on a mission. However, I am still not married. I haven't really written this down so as I type these next few sentences my heart is pouring out onto the keyboard through my fingers. Being married is all I have ever wanted since I was a little girl. As I got older, I came to know of the Lord's plan for me. I had to learn to make his will, my will. So there is nothing for me to do except what he wants me to. After coming to this knowledge, this is where the trial and adversary come in. I began to develop feelings of doubt in myself; my self esteem went to a low and I wondered if I would be a single sister forever. I finally shook those feelings by immersing myself in prayer, scripture study, and exercise. With the counsel given today, I guess I just am feeling kind of bummed again because I can't heed that counsel right now. I guess the question now is, am I the exception for right now? Now, that I have got that all off my chest, I kind of feel like a goober. Are these feelings normal or am I just weird???
I also have the feeling of get up and do! Service was mentioned quite a bit as well and it just makes me want to serve people. I pray that I may have opportunities to do so.
The messages that were given to us were words of inspiration, advice, and mostly love. I think Elder Holland's talk summed up what General Conference is every time. I usually leave conference feeling so rejuvinated and ready to take on the world with my armor in hand. I do feel that way but this time, I have a lot of other feelings too.
The first feeling I have is gratitude. It was said that it's not easy to be a Latter Day Saint in a world so harsh. I always thought it was but more recently I have seen the difficulties the adversary can have on me. However, because I have the gospel in my life, I know how to combat these evil forces and stand valiant. I have gratitude for a prophet and apostles who love us individually and take the time to ponder and pray about what they speak on each conference.
A feeling that I have come to be familiar with all to well the past few months is guilt. Right now, I have never felt more guilty. I feel like I can do so much better and I have the constant question burning in my brain of, "Am I good enough?" This conference our leaders spoke a lot on marriage. They counseled us to seek marriage, RIGHT NOW! Obviously, that is something I can't really do right now on a count of I am going on a mission. However, I am still not married. I haven't really written this down so as I type these next few sentences my heart is pouring out onto the keyboard through my fingers. Being married is all I have ever wanted since I was a little girl. As I got older, I came to know of the Lord's plan for me. I had to learn to make his will, my will. So there is nothing for me to do except what he wants me to. After coming to this knowledge, this is where the trial and adversary come in. I began to develop feelings of doubt in myself; my self esteem went to a low and I wondered if I would be a single sister forever. I finally shook those feelings by immersing myself in prayer, scripture study, and exercise. With the counsel given today, I guess I just am feeling kind of bummed again because I can't heed that counsel right now. I guess the question now is, am I the exception for right now? Now, that I have got that all off my chest, I kind of feel like a goober. Are these feelings normal or am I just weird???
I also have the feeling of get up and do! Service was mentioned quite a bit as well and it just makes me want to serve people. I pray that I may have opportunities to do so.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
General Conference
This weekend is General Conference. Will you be watching and listening to what the leaders of the church have to say?
I am so excited for General Conference. My family and I have watched the first session and were waiting for the second to start. As my mom exercises, Jared doing homework, and Jessie playing her various computer games, I think about how I am so grateful for these people in my life. I thought about my dad and how he is at work, to provide for us. The spirit of General Conference always brings a spirit of love to me.
I like to take notes and sometimes when I am trying to take notes so diligently, I think if what I am writing will help my future. Sometimes, I get caught up in taking notes, that I miss some of the words they say. I don't like that. Sometimes, it is better to just listen. When needed, the spirit will whisper to us what we need to know or remember. Only if we seek for it.
So, at the start of this 180th Annual Conference, I hope and pray that I can listen and remember what the prophet and leaders have to say to us.
I am so excited for General Conference. My family and I have watched the first session and were waiting for the second to start. As my mom exercises, Jared doing homework, and Jessie playing her various computer games, I think about how I am so grateful for these people in my life. I thought about my dad and how he is at work, to provide for us. The spirit of General Conference always brings a spirit of love to me.
I like to take notes and sometimes when I am trying to take notes so diligently, I think if what I am writing will help my future. Sometimes, I get caught up in taking notes, that I miss some of the words they say. I don't like that. Sometimes, it is better to just listen. When needed, the spirit will whisper to us what we need to know or remember. Only if we seek for it.
So, at the start of this 180th Annual Conference, I hope and pray that I can listen and remember what the prophet and leaders have to say to us.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
41
Oh Man! I have 41 days until I leave... The light is starting to shine at the end of the tunnel. The last few weeks have gone by super fast. To be honest, I am just ready to leave. Waiting in anticipation is a very hard thing. It doesn't matter if your a little kid going to Disneyland the next day or if your a grown adult waiting in line for the next iPad, or if your waiting to go on a mission! I am holding on strong and doing really well, so these next 41 days are going to be a breeze. I am having a hard time not buying anymore clothes though. I have way too many and I already won't be able to take some of them with me. *slanted face*
Yesterday, I went to the temple and it was absolutely gorgeous. It was such a perfect day and I was so grateful for it. I can hear the birds singing their songs now, and it makes me believe today will be another awesome day. Here is a picture ot two.
Taken in front- with the sun
Yesterday, I went to the temple and it was absolutely gorgeous. It was such a perfect day and I was so grateful for it. I can hear the birds singing their songs now, and it makes me believe today will be another awesome day. Here is a picture ot two.
Taken from behind-taken against the sun
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Grandpa
It's not often I speak about when my Grandpa passed away. I miss him so much and on some days it's hard to think that he isn't on the earth with me anymore. After about three years of both my Grandpa and Grandma passing, my family is cleaning out thier house. My Aunt Devona gave me my grandpa's scriptures to take with me on my mission. She knew that I was in need of a new set. However, after sitting her for awhile, flipping through the dusty pages and the smell of old paper drifting in my senses, I feel as though I can't take them with me. Old bookmarks, sacrament meeting programs, qoutes, hand written primary songs, fill these precious pages. I stared at his name that possesses the front of these and so many precious memories come flooding back to me. My grandpa may have never put to full use of these scriptures as he should, but they were his; Just as the set I have now are mine. I can picture my grandpa now telling me, "Here Lindsey, take these with you... use them." And then he would smile.
I learned a lot about this man by turning these pages. A few scriptures marked, perhaps his favorites, and programs with his name annoucing that he would be giving a talk, tells me that he had a testimony here on earth. I feel it. I know that he is continuing his purpose and work and learning so much on the other side.
My grandma gave him his Bible and when I read the sweet note she wrote him I too hope that he found "peace of mind and comfort." And when our Aunt Ruby gave him his Book of Mormon/Doctrine and Covenants/Pearl of Great Price, I thought, "what better Christmas gift to give than this."
I am so grateful to have these scriptures and to learn more about my grandpa!
I learned a lot about this man by turning these pages. A few scriptures marked, perhaps his favorites, and programs with his name annoucing that he would be giving a talk, tells me that he had a testimony here on earth. I feel it. I know that he is continuing his purpose and work and learning so much on the other side.
My grandma gave him his Bible and when I read the sweet note she wrote him I too hope that he found "peace of mind and comfort." And when our Aunt Ruby gave him his Book of Mormon/Doctrine and Covenants/Pearl of Great Price, I thought, "what better Christmas gift to give than this."
I am so grateful to have these scriptures and to learn more about my grandpa!
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